I didn’t drive on the highway for almost 2 years…
One of the books I’m reading right now is Kyle Cease’s book, I Hope I Screw This Up: How Falling In Love with Your Fears Can Change The World. (Loving it so far!)
There is a part of the book where he asks, what are you here to share or what is trying to express itself through you?
That got me thinking this morning about a time in my life (not that long ago) when I was in a very intense place. I want to share it with you. Many of you may know because I have shared this before, that in 2010, I recovered memories of being sexually abused as a child that I had repressed for almost 30 years.
My journey of healing since 2010 has been one of many ups and downs and TREMENDOUS healing and growth.
Part of my journey of healing has been learning how to rewire my body from the trauma and remove the seemingly endless triggers that had been imprinted into my body from those experiences. Imprints that at times, seemed to paralyze me in my life.
From June 2010 to Feb 2012, driving on a highway was a massive trigger for me, so much so that I couldn’t do it. The reason why is because ANY situation where my body felt trapped would cause me to go into a massive panic attack. The imprints from the sexual abuse were so strong it felt like I would rather die than drive on the highway.
During that time I would go through periods of thinking WTF is wrong with me??? How can a grown woman not be able to drive on the highway??? This lead me to uncovering so many truths about what happens in your body when you go through trauma and the repercussions years and years and years later, IF you do not heal.
I have broken FREE. Since 2012 I drive on the highway all the time with no issue. This experience has changed the course of my life. I went from being a chiropractor to now doing intuitive healing and coaching work to help others break free from their past. I went from being so angry and resentful most of the time to opening up to joy and happiness. I went from hating myself and constantly punishing myself and feeling like I wasn’t worthy of love or anything that I wanted to loving myself and knowing that I deserve what I want.
The way that I healed myself from this “issue” was to do energy work to rewire my body and release the trauma and all the triggers and imprints that were taking control.
I want you to know that I have never taken any medication or gone to traditional therapy in healing from sexual abuse. I’m not saying that because there is anything wrong with those choices, I am sharing that because I want YOU to know that there are OTHER WAYS to heal, in case those have not worked for you.
I talk to people all the time that think that just because an experience is in the past, it has no impact on them. I want you to know there are times that couldn’t be farther from the truth.
Our past experiences shape our beliefs, who we think we are, and our relationship with the world and IF we trust life or not.
If you are stuck right now, there could be a past experience that has NOT been healed that is the root cause of your issue.
Or I talk to people that say I am so grateful for all the things I have painful things I have experienced, when in reality it’s just an illusion they are telling themselves. It’s a cop out because to be honest, it’s too painful for them to heal from that experience.
Trust me…I GET IT! There are times the last 7 years that have been so FUCKING painful I didn’t want to go on. But, the ONLY way to FREE yourself from those experiences so that you have your power back and can truly love yourself and create whatever it is you want…is to HEAL.
I am not sharing this for your pity. My intention is to inspire you….to empower you…and to make sure you know there is ALWAYS a way!
So, I ask you…what are YOU here to share? What is trying to be express itself through you?
Are you doing it?
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With Courage,
Colleen
